While being back at work for the last week or so, I have realized just how much work it is to keep a household running smoothly, and how my priorities have temporarily shifted. Of course, Brayden’s needs come first, and when it is just me, I find myself slacking in other areas to be sure that Brayden is taken care of. I haven’t made the bed in a couple days, the mail is sitting up at the post office because I keep forgetting my key, and Brayden’s room is turning into some kind of crazy toy room! These things drive me crazy usually, but lately, my attitude has been much more mellow about it. I caught myself asking myself these questions: Is Brayden happy? Are his needs met? Do we have breakfast food for morning? Do we all have clean clothes to wear? I checked YES to all of these the other night, and went to bed relaxed, knowing that these are priorities right now.

Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmingly blessed in my marriage. Brandon has been incredibly supportive in my new business venture, helping out a lot with Brayden, and just overall being more attentive. But there are some days I think to myself “Why doesn’t he do this?” or “Why doesn’t he do that?” Then I see the way that some other wives treat their husbands out in public (and vice versa), and I whisper a “Thank you, Lord, for what I have in Brandon”. It isn’t always perfect (what is?) but it is what God has for me in my mate, and I am so thankful. I am very cautious now with my words to Brandon, saying thank you more, and being the nurturing woman in his life. It is something I take very seriously, but I also take it as my calling in life- to be a wife and mother. I couldn’t be more thankful. I just have to remember to tell him that, so he is affirmed by my words.

This post is late…I know. I have a sick baby and Sheana is still visiting, so my time has been very occupied! This post really doesn’t have much of a point either…bear with me.

Brandon and I stayed home this morning and put away all of Brayden’s infant clothes that don’t fit him anymore *tear*, took apart the jumparoo, and boxed up all of my maternity clothes. We needed to make room for some of the bigger items that Brayden has, bigger clothes, bigger diapers…bigger everything. I came across a couple of newborn diapers and just started crying. I can’t believe Brayden was ever that small. There is one outfit that I refuse to box up. I am just not ready to.

Am I ready for another baby? Some days yes, some days no. Ideally, I would like our kids 2 years apart or so….but I sure do miss those newborn snuggles. Time is flying.

Sick babies are no fun, but when they aren’t sick, they are worth it. Every minute. Every second. Brayden is my everything and at this point, I don’t know how my heart could hold any more love. But I know someday, it will be able to. I am just feeling very blessed, even in the trying times of balancing wifely duties and mom duties. I would do it all over again too…just not yet.

**I posted this early, I know. Sorry! I DO know what day it is… I think!!

I immediately apologized to Brandon for my lack of patience and understanding, but let him know that I was feeling somewhat alone even when he wasn’t hurt. We had a nice chat about it, agreed to be more patient with each other, knowing that we have two little eyes watching our every move. It wasn’t one of my finer moments, but it was definitely a powerful learning experience. I need to take my vocation as a wife and mother more seriously, and respect the ways that Brandon DOES take care of me, even if it isn’t letting me sit on the couch!

I don’t have much for you on this Wedded Wednesday, other than I am really learning a lesson on the importance of patience in my everyday life. Patience with Brayden, family, friends, squeaky appliances, needy cats, and pens that don’t write the first time.

Sometimes, I just need a reminder of the bigger things in life. The ones that WILL matter a week, a month, or a year from today. Thankfully, God places those reminders in just the right place and time.

Maybe sometime I will elaborate, but for now, I am just learning, growing, and enjoying it.