4 years ago, I was a newlywed, basking in the bliss that only a newlywed can feel, floating on cloud 9. Sure, there were some hard times in that first year of marriage (we bought and moved into our first home, we remodeled our home, I graduated college, we both took new jobs, and by the end of that year found out we were expecting) but that newlywed bliss is just a feeling that is hard to duplicate!
Over the years, add in two kids, a decision to have me stay home, Brandon working longer/more to make that happen for me, unfinished home renovations, money, alone time- it gets hard some days to feel that newlywed bliss. There are days where I just feel like I am going through the motions only to collapse exhausted into bed just to rest and do it all over again. My role feels monotonous. It IS monotonous. But it’s important, and sometimes I just need to take a step back and think about WHY I am doing what I do.
I do what I do because I love my husband. I love that he is a provider for our family. I love serving him by making sure he has clean clothes every morning and food to eat in the evening. (Seriously, these are his priorities. I can live with this!) I do what I do because I love my kids, I love watching them grow and I love fostering that growth in them. I love that I get to be with them all the time. (Well, for the most part! )
I do what I do because deep down, I LOVE it, even on the days where I would pay someone to just let me stay in the bathroom alone for 10 minutes and on the days where I am almost sad that it’s bedtime already. I do it because it’s important to me.
But most importantly, I do what I do because I feel that is what the Lord has called me to do. To be a wife and a mother. I do what I do to please Him. I’m not perfect, and I have days where I honestly feel like I can’t get it together. But I am trying, and striving, and loving what I do.
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