I remember writing this post as Brayden was self weaning. And this one. And this one. It was a rough time for me as a new mom trying to embrace Brayden’s newfound independence and the loss I was feeling. I had a hard time when Brayden rejected to nurse. A really hard time. I cried for days. But then, pretty soon I was ok with it, he was obviously MORE than fine, and we moved on.
And here I am, back at square one with Kenley. She’s nursing 3-4 times daily, sometimes only 3. She liked to have the cup when she is in her chair eating cereal, but if I try to get her to take it while we are sitting down in the chair, she lunges towards me. At my mom’s the other day, my mom offered to try to put her down for her nap, but after 10 minutes of crying, I caved, nursed Kenley, and she went right to sleep for 3 hours. It’s like she doesn’t know what she wants! Sometimes she eats really well, other times she is distracted and just lays there and looks at me.
I’m not really in a hurry to be done, but my sister’s bachelorette party is at the end of June, overnight in Chicago, and I really, really don’t want to have to either miss it or take Kenley along just because I am nursing. Pumping is not an option- it just never works well for me, and she can’t drink out of a cup or bottle anyways at this point. I am just going to stick with the cup/formula and pray for the best. It just has me frustrated. I wish she would either nurse well or not at all at this point, and I don’t want to force something that isn’t there.
*sigh* I almost feel like I never did this at all once, because SURELY I would know what to do? Right? But Brayden was older, more distracted, and ready….maybe Kenley just isn’t there. My mom and sister have assured me that a lot can change in 9 weeks time… I definitely know that to be true! So, I guess we just continue on and see what happens.
But it’s hard.
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