Today was not a good day. It was an awful day. Crabby kiddo, one hour nap, incessant whining, dragging me all over, then the finale of throwing himself onto the floor found him in bed at 7pm and me wishing it was 9pm so I could take my meds and go to bed myself.
My hormones are raging and the tears will not stop flowing.
How will I do this with two kids? HOW?
When will Brayden get that he can’t just drag me along everywhere? Or sit directly on my belly? Or not to rough house with me so much?
I am so overwhelmed with emotions, about what this transition will do to my little boy. And I only have 12 weeks left with him as an only. Of course, I am so excited about his baby sister, but I am almost mourning the loss of my only. The one I live and breathe for. How will I open myself to MORE love?
When will I know when he is ready for his new room? When will he talk more? Understand more? Listen more? Communicate in a way that is without stomping his feet? Should I be concerned? Is it just because he is a boy? Am I not doing enough?
The end of this day has left me feeling very inadequate. I hope tomorrow is better.
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It will be. It always is. Toddlers are the best because they are so excited and learning new stuff but the definitely "try and test" us. We have these days too…trust me. And it always gets better. The newborn thing terrifies me but I just keep telling myself one day at a time and we will survive. Right?
Tomorrow will be better. And once you've got 2 kids you will totally forget what you even DID with yourself all day when you only had 1. It gets easier, I promise.
Having another child join your family is so natural and wonderful that the best thing you can do is just relax and know it will all work out…Just think how thankful you are for your siblings and what a nice gift you're giving to Brayden with his.
You've got this, Mama. Deep breath, say a little prayer, let the tears flow, and tomorrow is a new day <3
I sure hope today has been better for you … hang in there. It'll all come together, some days are harder than others, but God would not give you something (another wonderful blessing on the way!) that you could not handle. Enjoy these last 12 weeks with your only; you know he's going to be a GREAT big brother!
xxoo
Sorry, Julie! : ( I can't say I know how you feel, but I do know tomorrow's another day!