Admittedly, I am pretty down this week. Mopey, not myself, etc. I am missing my husband, I am sad that my house isn’t all fancied up for the holidays, and it’s been a week of hard news.
I am SO glad that Brandon has been able to work to get this crop out, but it has been some long hours. I don’t know how he does it, but he hasn’t complained once, and I admire him for that. Waiting in line at the elevator at 3:30am surely isn’t ideal, but he loves farming, and I love him for that. They are down to 280 acres I believe, and I just keep praying that the weather holds out for them to finish.
He was so tired when we finally saw him Wednesday night, but he insisted on helping me with Brayden’s bathtime (where he gets him undressed, dries him, gets his jammies on, combs his hair) because he hadn’t spent much time with him lately. I told him he didn’t have to, of course, but he insisted. I could tell how happy Brayden was so get some smooches from his daddy!
I can really tell that God is working in me this week. This is the first time that I can remember not having Christmas decorations out the weekend of Thanksgiving. Brandon and I love this time of year, and generally go all out. This got worse when we got married and had our own house! We had planned to do it Sunday, but the weather cooperated and they worked in the field. No big deal. But now I keep seeing lights and trees in other’s houses, and I want to get my stuff out. (Note, it is clear up in the attic above the garage and Brandon has given me strict orders to stay away. He doesn’t want me to hurt myself. Can’t say that I blame him. The first time I was ever up there, I fell out of the attic.) But at the same time, that is not what is important right now.
My aunt in Nebraska just found out that her cancer has returned, and from what I know, it sounds like more chemo is in order. I haven’t spoken to her or my cousin, so I don’t want to say much, other than they could really use your prayers. Also, my college roommate had some bad news this week, so I really have just been praying a lot these days, and thanking God for showing me the TRUE reason for this season.
I know we will eventually have a Christmas tree, and all of the gifts will be wrapped, and I won’t have to do it alone. I am excited to share in those times with Brandon soon because I miss him SO much, and it’s Brayden’s first Christmas- we can’t wait. But for now, I need to be focusing on what is imporant- the health and well being of those around me.
I have also started a new Bible Study with my mom and sister called “Calm My Anxious Heart” and I am already in love, and have only read the first chapter. I am a big worrier, stressor, etc, so this Bible Study is really helping me find ways to just trust God and know that HE will take care of me.
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I'm sorry that you and Brandon aren't seeing much of each other–it's ALWAYS hard when that happens, even if there's good reason for it.
Our Christmas decorations aren't up yet either, and I'm not sure that they will be. I'm trying to look on the bright side and consider this an opportunity for myself to reflect on the real meaning of Christmas.
I would love to hear more about your Bible Study!
That Bible study sounds perfect for me too, when I get stressed, I really get stressed!
I will keep your requests in my prayers.
I hope you and Brandon get to spend some quality time together soon. Just think of how great it will be when the harvest is all in and you can relax this winter!
Here are a couple verses my mother in law shared with me when I was going through a hard time a couple years ago: Philippians 4:6-7 and 1 Peter 5:7. I also like Phil. 4:13.
Very soon I too will know the feeling of missing my hubby and I am dreading it! At least you will have hubby and baby for the holiday, and that is truly what matters most!